Last week I finished Little Miss’ duvet cover, but proper photos never came about. Her mum loved fabric from Heather Givans’ Literary collection, of which I have several fat quarters stashed just for my eldest. In the meantime, both sides of the cover are edged in Classics, providing a little break from the superhero theme.
I wasn’t certain what to start next sewing-wise, and as for the writing, I’m currently rereading what was recently published, checking for stray typos. However, I’ll be leaving to help care for my mom, who hasn’t been well since April. I might take some hexies with me, as they are portable, but more on my mind is family requiring love and assistance.
Of course my thoughts go back to when The Burrito was new and my dad was ailing. This with Mom is different, yet parallels remain, the biggest being no longer am I of the younger generation. A grandma now for three years, my role is that of a matriarch within my immediate family. As an eldest daughter, I work in conjunction with siblings to facilitate the best care and treatment for our mum, but it’s not like when Dad was sick, because Mom was in charge then, and we were following her example. While that experience prepped me for the future, often the future emerges with different rules.
Making a duvet cover was challenging, and while I wasn’t always enthralled with the task (and am not certain I would ever sew another), new processes were learned, increasing my sewing skills. Mom will appreciate that metaphor, as she’s a seamstress from way back. We can discuss fabrics and patterns in the coming days, or whatever she feels like chatting about; I recall my dad dictating our conversations, he loved to talk. But I don’t feel like somebody’s little girl anymore, maybe the death of a parent ends that notion. Now I’m someone else, an abuela yes, also…. Taking a deep breath, I await what comes next. The best way to meet these changes is with open arms, a willing heart, and the awareness of grace at my back. Of those three, the latter is most important, and upon that I will gratefully rely.